I’m noticing a trend recently. I get these flashes of anger – flashes so violent that I want to throw or hit something.
I’ve always had a temper. As a child, I was quick to anger but my fuse has lengthened with age. My methods for dealing with it have also improved. I tend to internalize it a lot, but that’s more productive than blowing up, right?
I don’t understand what has sparked this recent development. The anger just suddenly appears and explodes, much like a carbonation bubble rising in a glass of soda. I never know when it will appear or what will set it off. Maybe I need to let it have its head – find something to hit or break.
Hmmm – there’s an idea. I’m sure I could find a cheap set of dishes at a thrift store. I’d have to clean up afterward, but it might be worth it.